I Wish I Could Touch You Again.

I miss the way your hand felt in mine and the way you held me. Just thinking about your hands around me gets my heart started. I know we did nothing really, you just held me, but it felt so nice to be held and to have someone really pay attention to me. You used to talk to me about anything and we use to share our desires and lives with each other. I wish that hadn't changed; that stupid day changed so much about the way we talk and the way we interact. I don't know why, you use to say you wanted to hang out, go out for drinks but now i can barely get you to have a meaningful or enjoyable conversation with me. I just want to have the old relationship we had back, i just want a friend; I need a friend.

Current Situation

So I find my self in a strange situation these days with feelings that are ALL over the board, and I'm not sure what to do with them. I want so badly to be in love with A man who thinks that I am the woman he wants and is supposed to spend the rest of his life with. I want so much for someone to love me unconditionally, to love me more than video games or beer, to think i'm more important than a night out with his friends and simply want to just spend time with me; someone to love me the way a wife and friend should be loved! But I am not sure if I am capable of receving such love, I feel so broken and so uncared for; so unimportant and un-needed. I want to be married and share in that loving commitment but I am not sure if i beleive in that anymore. I have so much hurt and pain in my heart from so much loss, whether it be death or simply someone walking out, I find it hard to belive that anyone will stay with me. I feel I am too broken, too screwed up to be loved and cherished. Seeking love in all the wrong places, -- LG -- (Little Girl)